SICK.

I am sick of trying to be good and nice.

Sick of trying to be the good good girl when I know I am not.

I am trying my best to be good tempered. But you guys do things that would provoke me.

I did try to study now. But you all, what did you all do? Assumed that I didn't and throw it all away. That's demoralizing. How not to throw my temper back at you?

Sometimes its not that I wish to be rude. But I hate it when people don't get their facts right and throw it in my face. I don't like to be accuse. The fact is, everyone in the family is treating me like shit. Then for fuck am I still here?

They can never be understanding towards me. They will never, and they will not. When its my pms period, I tend to get cranky. But do they ever know that? No. They don't. Do they ask? No. They don't. Nobody does. Nobody makes an effort to. Nobody appreciates me at all I tell you. I can do anything without asking for anything in return. I can be good at certain stuffs but I don't go around showing off. I may be a high level gamer but I am humble about it. So? What do I get in return? Unkind gestures, people's stupid looks shining on me. Being straight forward gets myself slammed. I end up having to keep everything to myself. Why? Why like this? I don't know. Life isn't fair I guess. I should just keep everything to myself and feel sorry for myself. Sorry that I have such a fucked up family, sorry that I have such fucked up people around me. Sorry that I had to work so hard to get to this far. Sorry that I don't have a chance to be straightforward - at all.

People are just mfkers. Slap yourselves and wake up dudes. Look at yourself in the mirror and start thinking whether you are those what you always want us to be before you start saying us. All of you suck.